Joy Comes in the Morning

2020.  This is a New Year.  New beginnings; a new chapter.

A year ago from today I had an appointment scheduled just 2 days from now (1/18).

It was the ugliest day of our life.  The day we found out our daughter's diagnosis. The day that forever changed us.  I won't ever forget it.  It's like we were branded that day, the brand of bereaved.

It was a hard year last year.  If I had to compare it to something it would probably be like a Michigan winter.  Bleak.  Dreary.  Lifeless.

2019 can literally suck it.

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Back to 2020.

We've been cleared by our doctor to start trying for a baby again back in early December after being on special vitamins for 3 months straight.



This morning I took a digital pregnancy test, and it came back POSITIVE!!!!



So when I title this post "joy comes in the morning" I really freaking mean it!!!!



God is good y'all.  I have prayed and asked that He blesses us with a child, one that we can keep here on Earth.  I will continue to pray, and hope that we will bring this baby home with us.

Am I nervous?  Hell yes.  But am I more excited than anything? Absolutely!

I can't explain it, but I trust in the Lord so much with my life I believe this was the path we were meant to take.  There have already been people that have come into our lives that have been through trials with their children.  Children with illnesses and birth defects, mothers that have lost children too.  Our story isn't over yet.  We are called according to His purpose.

This child, I have prayed for.  This child, I pray will be our new found hope.

In life, there are seasons.  Seasons of sadness; seasons of grief; seasons of happiness.

I can't emphasize enough on clinging to God.

The only reason why we've been able to get through this season in our lives is because of Him.  Our Almighty God, our Creator.  He knows our hearts, our souls.  He knows our struggles and pain.

He knew His only son would have to bear the burden of the nailing on the cross.  Jesus asked his Father to "please take this cup from me."  He watched him be crucified, yet knew that it was the greatest test of love.  Jesus died for not just my sins, not for your sins, but for ALL of our sins!!!

I thought losing our daughter was incredibly hard.  I can't imagine watching her grow up to be in her thirties, knowing her ultimate fate.  I couldn't do it.  But I know that the Holy spirit will enter any heart that longs for God's love and asks to know Him.

If you haven't accepted God in your heart, I challenge you to.  I ask and pray that you do.  Because whatever suffering you are going through in your life He can help you.  Not any person on Earth can love like He can.  Read His word, and THANK HIM!  Thank Him for the air in your lungs, for the rain that falls and waters the crops so we can eat, thank Him for your livelihood and the clothes on your back.

A rich life,  has nothing to do with money and everything to do with God's grace, blessings and forgiveness.

Faith, Hope & Love.  The greatest of these, is love.